Bacon & artichoke heart-stuffed zucchini. // A rainy walk to get ice cream.
When I went to a reproductive endocrinologist a few months ago to try to figure out why I wasn't pregnant after a year and a half of trying, I felt torn as to whether or not I truly wanted to have another baby. At the time, the thought of not continuing to try to get pregnant made me feel panicky and anxious. We had been trying so hard for so long that I wasn't ready make that decision just yet.
But now I am.
For the last few weeks, I've allowed the emotions to come up regarding not having another baby and yes, at first, those panicky and anxious feelings dominated my thoughts. But, as the weeks passed and as we have had time to discuss how our lives would look with only one child, the panic and anxiety have subsided and I've started to see the beautiful life that we will have raising just Alice. The beautiful life that we already have raising just Alice.
I finally feel comfortable saying that I don't want to have another baby and that we are making the choice to stop at one child. Most everyone that I've shared this with has been supportive but there have been a few who, without knowing what we've been through, have made insensitive remarks regarding only children. Being comfortable with our decision, I've managed to take those comments in stride and have used it as an opportunity to have a discussion as to why people believe that we must give Alice a sibling for her to turn out normal or so that she can have a life-long friend or whatever other misconceptions they have about only children.
As someone who only has a relationship with one of her three siblings, I can immediately dispel at least one of those misconceptions.
After so many months of uncertainty, I feel at peace with our decision. And I feel excited and happy about our future together. Just us three.
Weekend Workouts: Saturday & Sunday - I was INSANELY sore from back squats and then 150 wall balls that I could barely walk, so... Rest day!
Alice reveling in the beauty. Snowbird Ski & Summer Resort.