Monday, October 20, 2014


The sun sets on the Oquirrhs.

Saturday morning I received a text that I had been anticipating for weeks. The text was from the husband of one of my best friends, letting me know that his wife was in labor! I'd been anticipating this moment for more than just wanting to congratulate my friend on her newest child but because she had asked me a few weeks ago if I'd be willing to photograph her labor and the birth of her daughter.

I left Alice and Lee to do our usual Saturday morning routine of wandering the farmers market and I quickly drove to their home where my friend was laboring under the watchful eye of her skilled midwife. Having seen a few women in labor before (and having been in labor myself), I was amazed at how calm and collected she seemed despite being just a few hours away from delivering a baby.

The whole experience was surreal and I was brought to tears more than once as I watched her endure and then overcome the pain of a contraction while her husband rubbed her back or held her hand. She was a pillar of strength and I was awestruck by her resolve but also by the ability of the human body to persevere through what is probably one of the most painful experiences a healthy woman will ever go through.

Watching her labor and then deliver a perfectly healthy baby girl brought up feelings I didn't anticipate, though. As I watched her in the birthing tub, her husband giving support at her side, tears sprung to my eyes as I realized I will never again experience the anticipation, the pain, and then the joy of meeting your child for the first time. In that moment of unexpected emotion, I was grateful for the lens of my camera to hide my tears as I didn't want the moment to be colored by the grief I was feeling.

But as she held her seconds-old baby in her arms, I felt that grief dissipate and I was immediately flooded with joy at having witnessed such a miraculous event. And I felt honored to have helped welcome a new life onto this planet.

Weekend Workouts: Saturday & Sunday - None! After having watched the birth of a baby, I felt completely exhausted and totally out of it for the rest of the day. And Sunday was no better! Back at it this week.

Wednesday, October 15, 2014


Anniversary walk at Jordanelle.

Since going to that information session for graduate school a few weeks ago, I've spent a great deal of time in my head, thinking about what is the next best step for me both personally and professionally. After a late-night talk and a lot of miscommunication on what each of us believed to be the best path forward for our collective futures, Lee and I left the conversation and my dream of attending graduate school completely unresolved.

But now we have a plan.

At this time I am moving full-steam ahead with both going back to work and applying for the fall 2015 start of the Doctorate of Nurse Practitioner program. I don't know yet if I will return to my roots in the ICU or the ER or if I will go in an entirely different career direction while I await the start of school. And who knows if I even stand a chance of getting into the program next year.

It just feels so good to finally have a plan for my future. And for our future.


Strange plants along the shore of the reservoir.

Monday, October 13, 2014


Homemade apple chips! Here's the recipe.

I'm a bit paralyzed at the moment with thinking about a major career/professional decision and my head just isn't clear enough to write about our weekend. So please enjoy a few photos I took of us making apple chips on Saturday.

And wish me some clarity and peace of mind on what to do next.

Weekend Workouts: Saturday - Rest day! Sunday - Hike with Jill! Church Fork to Grandeur Peak. 6.7 miles/3:00/2,555 ft elev gain.

Friday, October 10, 2014


Friday trail run. Butler Fork to Gobbler's Knob.

Lately I have felt so uninspired to blog and obviously that is showing in what I write and how often I post. My days feel busier than usual and with what downtime I have, I've spent doing household chores or grocery shopping or, what I really prefer to be doing lately, trail running in our gorgeous mountains.

I've also asked myself lately why I continue to blog. What is the point?! Who reads this and what are they getting out of my babbling?!

Looking back at what I've written one, two, and even three years ago helps to rekindle my motivation to continue writing as nothing will ever be as true to the moment or to my feelings during that time period as what I wrote in that post. Those months which turned into over a year of trying to conceive. The emotion and the experience of growing a baby. The early and chaotic days of motherhood. Moves across the country. Trips all over the world. Those experiences and those memories are captured here.

And that is what I need to use for inspiration to continue writing.

Happy Weekend! What are your plans? I'm getting back out there to enjoy more of those insanely beautiful fall colors.

Weekly Workouts: Monday - CrossFit! On the 0:00 21-15-9 of deadlifts (135lbs) + burpees, on the 10:00 15-9-6 of power cleans (85lbs) + dips (red band), on the 20:00 9-6-3 front squats (85lbs) + bar or ring MUs (ha! C2B red band). Tues - Rest day! Wednesday - CrossFit! EMOM 20 min of even min 30 DUs, odd min 12 wall balls (14lbs... Rx'd it!). Thursday - CrossFit! 2 position clean (hang, floor 100 lbs), then 5RFT of 250m row + 5 burpees + 5 power cleans (65lbs... Rx'd again!). Friday - Trail run to Gobbler's Knob! 8.5 miles/2:10/3,261 ft elev gain. The Knob is 10,224 ft!!

Unbelievable color out there today. This is a frame-r for sure.

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

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