Tuesday, August 23, 2011
the Dumps.
Ugh. UGH! You know way back when I blogged a lot about feeling displaced, about feeling transient, about feeling unsettled? Well, those feelings returned today. WHY? I have no idea (okay, I have some idea). But it's annoying, nonetheless. I know I've said many times that I can't keep living in the future of when we move back to Utah but, the last few days, for some reason... I miss home. A lot. You'd think that, seven months into this journey in Boston, I'd feel more at ease here. But I just don't. And I don't know why that is. Maybe it's hormones. Maybe it's the fact that Lee is out of town for a few days (DING! DING! DING!). Maybe it's because I was looking through old photos last night of our loft in Salt Lake City. Maybe it's just that I do miss Utah. And I'm acknowledging that feeling. And now I'm letting it go. Because life is beautiful. My life is beautiful. And there is no point in wasting this beautiful day feeling melancholy.
What do you do to help yourself feel better when you're a bit down-in-the-dumps (besides eat a huge bowl of ice cream)? Usually, I'll go for a run but I already did that this morning (surprisingly, it didn't really help). Luckily I'm having dinner with a friend tonight which I'm sure will help lighten my mood!
I'm reading the book, 'The Help.' Have you read it? Have you seen the movie? I think the book is great (but shocking) and I'm wondering how true to the book the movie is. I think I'll take myself on a date next week to see it (Lee will be out of town again).
Garmin stats: 4 miles/Not sure of the minutes. I'm running sort of slow (for me) these days. I used my Garmin's heart rate monitor function to gauge my run, not the miles per minute. Revolutionary!
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Feeling "off" for any reason is just a major bummer. I definitely have my share of these feelings and constantly have to remind myself to live in the present. My fix is a run then a shower and tv. TV is just such a nice escape from reality when things are just kinda blah.
ReplyDeleteI know exactly how you feel! However, I think I would like Boston MUCH better than Roswell!! I miss Utah too... and I think some don't realize it until they are gone.
ReplyDeleteever watch the movie "life is beautiful"? it's one of my favorite movies and it really puts things in perspective.
ReplyDeletehang in there :)
I love how in your writing you pretty much answer all your own questions. :) You are beautiful and your life is beautiful. Weekends alone aren't always the greatest...but it's nice to use them as ways to pamper yourself! I need to read that book!
ReplyDeleteI loved the Help. I only wish I would be able to see the movie sooner. I don't know when it will make it over here.
ReplyDeleteThe transient feeling? It usually takes me six months, but then again, we move a lot more than the average family (every 3-3.5 years).
I have been missing "home" (the states) a bit, but I think you hit the nail on the head, it's worse when your significant other isn't around.
You'll be home soon enough! I can't wait to see you!
ReplyDeleteI listened to The Help and it was really cool to listen to it. The lady who read it did all the voices amazingly. I haven't seen the movie yet, but I'm hoping to soon. Maybe if you haven't seen it by the time you come here, we can go on a date :)