It's quiet around here this morning. Grandma Julie has gone home. Lee has gone to work. It's back to just me and my little sidekick. The sounds of cats meowing for their breakfast, the morning NPR broadcast and Alice's babbling fill our apartment rather than my mom's silly songs or baby talk. It is quiet. But sort of nice.
No offense, Mom.
Of course we miss having my mom here. But I have always been very independent. Since I was little, I wanted to do things for myself and by myself. And it's no different today. So having my mom here was nice as it gave me a chance to shower in peace or go to CrossFit in the light of day rather than at 5:30AM while my mom watched Alice. But it was also really tough for me. I am used to do everything for myself. Making coffee. Changing diapers. Doing laundry. Bathing baby. And I don't give up that control easily.
It's not just my fierce independence that makes it hard for me to give up control. Of course no ones' childhood was idyllic (mine certainly was not) and things that shaped and influenced me as a child are still with me today. But I am working on letting that stuff go. Working on trusting again. Working on giving up the ghost. It isn't easy. But it is the healthy thing to do.
So serious for a Monday morning, huh? Well, to lighten the mood, I did make this delicious pumpkin cheesecake bread over the weekend (thanks, Lauren!) and it was totally yummy and totally moist and totally gone in less than a day. Since I am currently on the one baked-good a day diet plan, I think Alice and I will make another loaf.
Do you love all-things-pumpkin at this time of year? Yep. Pumpkin pie smoothies. Pumpkin bread. Pumpkin-spiced lattes. Pumpkin pie soda. I love it all!