Monday, October 15, 2012


It's quiet around here this morning.  Grandma Julie has gone home.  Lee has gone to work.  It's back to just me and my little sidekick.  The sounds of cats meowing for their breakfast, the morning NPR broadcast and Alice's babbling fill our apartment rather than my mom's silly songs or baby talk.  It is quiet.  But sort of nice.

No offense, Mom.

Of course we miss having my mom here.  But I have always been very independent.  Since I was little, I wanted to do things for myself and by myself.  And it's no different today.  So having my mom here was nice as it gave me a chance to shower in peace or go to CrossFit in the light of day rather than at 5:30AM while my mom watched Alice.  But it was also really tough for me.  I am used to do everything for myself.  Making coffee.  Changing diapers.  Doing laundry.  Bathing baby.  And I don't give up that control easily.

It's not just my fierce independence that makes it hard for me to give up control.  Of course no ones' childhood was idyllic (mine certainly was not) and things that shaped and influenced me as a child are still with me today.  But I am working on letting that stuff go.  Working on trusting again.  Working on giving up the ghost.  It isn't easy.  But it is the healthy thing to do.

So serious for a Monday morning, huh?  Well, to lighten the mood, I did make this delicious pumpkin cheesecake bread over the weekend (thanks, Lauren!) and it was totally yummy and totally moist and totally gone in less than a day.  Since I am currently on the one baked-good a day diet plan, I think Alice and I will make another loaf.

Do you love all-things-pumpkin at this time of year?  Yep.  Pumpkin pie smoothies.  Pumpkin bread.  Pumpkin-spiced lattes.  Pumpkin pie soda.  I love it all!


  1. Oh my Alice looks so sweet in that hat. Always enjoy your posts, and it's hard to let those ghosts go, definitely takes time.

  2. Oh, Alice! Look at those expressions! She is too much!

    And wow. It looks like that pumpkin bread turned out amazing. Did you end up doubling the recipe?

    1. I didn't end up doubling the recipe. I figured I should make it the right way the first time rather than press my luck by making two. We are making another loaf today, though!!

      Thanks for sharing that recipe!! XO.

  3. That face! She just keeps getting cuter and cuter!

    I couldn't relate more to what you said about learning to let people help you. I too am used to, and enjoy/prefer, doing things for myself. Throughout the whole process of wedding planning people never stopped asking what they could help with - to the point of some getting angry with me towards the end. While I appreciate the people who did help once I relented or thought of tasks that would be easier for someone else to do, so often it seems like things are just simpler when we do them on our own. Less time delegating = more time being efficient imho.

    Your quiet morning sounds lovely - I just poured a cup of tea and your post encouraged me to turn off the television [shrieks of real housewives is no way to mellow out! and an episode three years old at that!] and turn on the radio :)

  4. She is adorable (obviously!) and I would really like a slice of that pumpkin bread. My mornning sounds a lot like yours, cat meowing-check, NPR-check, little babbles- check :)

    I am with you on not liking to let go of control. I would rather do everything myself so it gets done exactly the way I like it! I also adore my mom and we chat every single day, but there is a special kind of bonkers she drives me after a few days under the same roof. Then I miss her terribly when she goes.

  5. I heart pumpkin. I made Nutella pumpkin muffins on Friday :) yum!

  6. Craig moved to Boston two weeks before Gus and I did and when we were all back together again I was all THAT'S NOT HOW YOU DO IT. Haha, sharing is hard...even as an adult! It's also hard letting go of the childhood stuff but it doesn't do us any good to hold onto it. It certainly doesn't change anything. My dad visited this past weekend and my mom is coming in two weeks.. I'm grateful that they want to see us but there's part of me that is looking forward to November already. I need to stop wishing away my favorite month!

  7. PUMPKIN CHEESECAKE BREAD? I've just found your blog and I'm sitting here drooling over the photos I've just seen! That looks so, so good! And what a fun spin on traditional pumpkin bread!

    the Reverie blog

  8. I'm really independent too & I struggle when my mum comes to stay. We normally end up fighting but this last time I was so sick I had to let her do much, much more than I normally do. It was kind of nice & I know she enjoyed it.

  9. Thanks for letting me come and visit with you, your husband and Alice. It was wonderful to get to spend some quality time with you and our little granddaughter Alice. I love the beautiful pictures of her cute face. But seeing her in person was the icing on the cake.

    Yes, there is a little craziness in our family. Remember, you come from a line of crazies, not just from my side, but also from your dads. So.... making up songs, putting lyrics together with Little Alice as the subject is just part of your heritage.

    When Alice has grown up and has children of her own.... she may remember some of those crazy songs and sing them to her little ones.

    PS: I'm glad you are independent! That's how I tried to raise you. I love you just the way you are! xoxo


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