1st Birthday party prep.
On Tuesday I was very impatient with Alice. All day, in fact. At one point, I even snapped at her. She was a tad needier than usual. I felt on edge for some reason. And because of that wretched winter storm, we were cooped up inside only venturing out of our apartment once to get the mail. Miserable.
As the nature of mommy guilt goes, I felt terrible the second I shut her bedroom door after putting her to bed for the night. I kept thinking about her startled little face looking up at me after I sternly (and loudly!) said her name and told her No! because she was whining. I remember feeling annoyed at her little hands pulling at my leg begging to be picked up while I was trying to clean the kitchen. The sickness I felt in my stomach after our day together was the reality check that I needed to realize she isn't the problem. I am.
And so on Wednesday morning at my 5:30AM CrossFit class I got all my anger, all my frustration, all my annoyance out so that I could be a better, more patient momma to Alice that day. While doing those thrusters and sit-ups and squats and kettlebell swings and handstand push-ups, I closed my eyes, gritted my teeth and let is all go.
And after that killer workout, that snappy and impatient momma was nowhere to be found.
Workouts: Monday - Rest day. Tuesday - CrossFit: Strict shoulder press 5 sets of 3 (75lbs), then overhead presses (85lbs) with jump rope in between sets followed by 20 burpees (ugh). Wednesday - CrossFit: that madness described above! Thursday - Planned to go to CrossFit this AM but I am too sore from yesterday!